fingers crossed

after just a few weeks i finally got a response from VSO Bahaginan about my application for the overseas volunteer assignment. I was invited to further my application by completing my profile and was assured to hear from them in 15 days. i was so excited!

of course i know it will take a few more months before everything falls into place, but that might just be spot on with my plan to bum around for the first couple of months next year. the volunteer commitment is between 12 to 24 months. to be honest, i'm not sure if i want to be tied to it for so long, but at the same time, perhaps that's just ample time to really see the outcome of the volunteer work to the people who will be part of it. in any case, i really want to see this through. so, fingers crossed! :)  

Unemployment Scheme

I am certain at this point that I'm gonna quit my job before end of the year.

I think that while there are a thousand reasons why I shouldn't be jobless, there is one very important reason why I should: I need to be free. I've been despondent about my work, for so long now, and I can't ignore it anymore.

So the plan is to stay just a couple of months more to get my bonus. On the very day that this $ is debited into my account, I will push the paper forward, all three freaking copies of them. I should be out of job by start of December, and I intend to spend the next three months wandering and doing things that I've put off for a while.

I'm not sure if this is the right thing to do, and I'm a bit scared of seeing my savings reduced to half (or worse, to nothing), but I think it's something I have to do.

So, we shall find out by end of October!

Ground Zero

Reading through my old blog, I realized that there had been too many entries on supposed realizations of wrong-doings and half-hearted attempts to correct them. A lot more on sadness and being lost and lessons that I've supposedly *learned* from them, but in reality, have not made me feel a wee bit better than before. After three years, I have changed. But, my longing for a more fulfilling and meaningful life, has not.

And so today I have decided to retire that and start a new one. Call it a transformation project. I hope to one day look back at this first entry, and smile, because I have stopped wandering.